I’ve been in the process of starting a blog for years; I’ve toyed with the idea and talked myself out of it for fear of failure. About a million times. What does a failed blog look like? I have no idea, but that’s what I always told myself to avoid taking the plunge. In August I bought a domain name (not this one) and since then I’ve been trying to figure out what to say.
Then inspiration struck!
2017 has been a transformational year for me, and I don’t use that word lightly. When you look back over the year and adding another baby to your family doesn’t feel like the biggest change, you’ve had yourself a year. It occurred to me that I likely wasn’t alone in this. Likely, others had also found themselves changed by this year, for better and for worse. It occurred to me that perhaps my story was relatable; perhaps it could provide inspiration, or at the very least make others say “So it isn’t just me?”
I have NEVER ever ever ever ever ever described myself as a perfectionist; I made peace with the fact that no one’s perfect a long time ago, so I’ve been absent of the burden of perfectionism so many people seem to be plagued with. That’s not always a good thing. I think my “Oh well you can’t be perfect anyway” mindset has often given me permission to be lazy because if perfection is an unachievable objective, what’s the point really?
I can’t pinpoint exactly what made me want to be better this year. Maybe it was the baby. Maybe it was the postpartum depression that rocked my existence. Maybe I was just tired of feeling like I wasn’t really putting forth my best effort. Whatever it was, this year has caused me to take more self-inventory than I ever have, and I’ve changed the way most things do: gradually and then all at once.
The inspiration behind the title of this blog, Gilding the Lily, is two-fold. One, it’s a common phrase used to describe improving on something that’s already pretty good. (Technically, the definition says “to improve on something beautiful or excellent,” but we just met, so I’m trying to be humble. LOL) The second reason is it’s Alex Guarnaschelli’s favorite description on chopped, and I love her. The idea is this: I was fine before these changes. Generally speaking, we’re all just fine as we are. “Fine,” though, simply stopped being good enough for me, and I found myself in pursuit of better. I’m not looking for perfection; I’m just looking for better.
I hope you’ll join me on this journey. I’m eager to tell you where I’ve been, how far I’ve come, and how far I still have to go. It’s been a year, at times a tough one, but I can honestly say that I am better now than I was when it started. I’d call that a win.